Another Light Metaphor

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I see no pleasant dawn coming but a bleak dusk.

It’s been a stressful season.  Just as the daylight hours are lengthening now, it feels like the time I spend in the cold darkness becomes longer and longer.   After every momentary relief comes a cause for confusion and chaos in my mind.

A big factor of it is time.  Time isn’t allowing me to do all I need to do as soon as possible.  Time is making me suffer because as much as I’m trying to change, I still have to wait for opportunities to show that to my friends. And as more time passes, the more serious the problems are going to become.

I don’t know what to do anymore.  I’m being pulled apart in so many directions.  I’m at the brink of insanity.

I can’t translate the heaviness of my heart right now, but it’s overwhelming.

I guess it’s worth noting that I had an interview with Princeton today.  My interviewer said that it really isn’t going to be considered for the application, so I don’t know.  Whatever.

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